Sunday, August 29, 2010

I wish...

I wish that life was fair.

I wish that life was balanced.

I wish that I understood the small things.

I wish that I could tell my mind to stop thinking long enough for sleep.

I wish that my children would know they are loved. By me.


I wish that I would know my children love. Love me.


I wish that the world was just a little bit smaller.


I wish that the world was just a little bit bigger.


I wish that I understood the generosity of many.


I wish that I understood the ignorance of few.


I wish that I could glimpse the future.


I wish that I could change the past.


I wish that love wasn't so elusive.


I wish that hope would be longer felt.


I wish that joy could be everlasting.


I wish that emotions could be more controlled.


I wish that I could be more understanding.


I wish that communication wasn't so demanding.


I wish that understanding wasn't so hard.


I wish that forgetting could be easier.


I wish that remembering could be longer.


I wish that endings didn't happen, but that beginnings still came.




I wish, I wish, I wish...

Friday, August 13, 2010

It's been a while...

I often sit down to write and then stare blankly at the page. It isn't that I don't have things floating around in my head to write about, it's that I don't often have the words with which to write. I read other people's blogs and wish I could be as eloquent. However, that is not to be, so instead, I sit and stare for awhile, write a few sentences, erase them and try again, erase some more and then finally just decided that today isn't the day.

Today's thoughts are a mixture of so many things - the amazing generosity of my supporters, people I love who come and go, how hard it really is to be a parent, weight issues on tour, planning the choir's schedule for our trip to Las Vegas, wondering if I'll be able to make it to Regina for my dear friend's wedding in October, thankful for the church stay that has been so refreshing, thinking about the end of tour and the next step, and the list goes on and on.

How is it even possible to put such a myriad of thoughts into one blog post? It's not, I don't think. And, when I try to separate out just one thought, it links into another thought and another and then the mess in my head becomes even more complicated.

Bah!