I think too much. I think about what I said, what I didn't say, what I'm glad I said but wish I had said differently, what I did, what I didn't do, what I wish I had done differently. Seriously - I need a vacation from myself. I need a break from my brain which refuses to shut off. I need a break from the constant dialogue in my head. I don't know how to make it go away. I keep my thoughts very close to myself - partially because I'm not very good at articulating them, partially because I find it hard to share what is going on in my mind because after I do, I'll think about it for days.
I'm on vacation from work and although it has in many ways been wonderful, I'm going back to work as tired as I was when I left. Totally defeated the purpose of this vacation.
I wish I knew what to do to make this constant thought process stop. It's going to drive me insane.
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I can totally relate to this, except for me, it is the inability to turn off over analyzing. I run into trouble talking too much and then I spend my time agonizing over what I should have done better. Praying that it all improves before work on Monday. <3
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